Hello, guys so today I had a bad day because I wanted to talk to a new girl in my class but I did not grab the chance because I was shy to stop her as she was on her way home and start talking to her. I have to add, that I would not even know what I should talk about. I always have this problem being shy around girls that I would like to date. On my way home today, I was angry, first because friends did not invite me to party(that would not have been a big problem - I would probably not go anyway because I hate parties, I dont feel comfortable at parties, but I wanted to be at least invited so that I could reject). The second thing why I was angry of course because of the girl I did not talk to and the last thing was that I still did not have a single girlfriend. I am on university 23 years old and I still did not get any girlfriend. It seems only girls that I am not attracted to find me attractive. But I would rather stay alone in despair than dating a girl that I do not find attractive. However, all the attractive girls are either taken or do not find me interesting in any way. I am so socially awkward, I am even nervous walking down the shopping centre because I have this feeling that people are looking at me waiting until I do something stupid and so they can laugh. Few days back I chatted with one girl on Facebook from my school, I told her I saw her before and that she is pretty and that is why I noticed her but I assume she found that creepy because before I mentioned that she was always putting smile face after every message, now she replies just: no, yes, think so... Just one word answers without emoticon. Damn, I hate my life, I hate being introvert, shy and antisocial. I would love to be that guy who girls are around and find him attractive or at least girls like to spend time with. I was always considered the boring guy. I never ever have any idea what to talk about with girl that I have no actual reason to talk to beside wanting to date her. This is weird, I do not even know why I am writting this, Today I thought to myself that my life will be pretty boring. I will finish school, find a boring job and work until I die. Such an awesome purpose of life!!!!!! No girlfriend, no wife, no kids. Just damned job and then death. All stupid jerks have girls and I do not deserve a single one that I would find attractive and which would find me attractive??? This is a lost story... I am done with this life. I was hoping university is my last chance and it was. But unsuccessful. My life is a disappointment.