Whatever you do, don't let what happened to me happen to you.

I can't even begin to describe how similar our stories are, but from one man to another you have to understand that things can get much worse.

Your son is only five. This is a good thing. There is plenty of time to think things through and come up with a loose plan that will change over time and someday solidify. Find a way to put time on your side. It will come to you like it did to me, but in my case these revelations came car too late, my efforts themselves too little too late.

I am going to prison . my ex wife has custody of my son and she is not stable e ough on any front to help mend the broken heart my little boy is suffering. I am powerless to stop her sadistic family from putting me in an early grave, and my son is the one who will live to remember the raw contempt he has today for what her and her family have done to me, what her family has done to her, and ultimately done to him.

You have to use your head or this will take over your life like it did mine. I was blackmailed into signing child support paperwork and made to leave my home behind. I became an alcoholic and lost sight of my dreams for raising the fa.ily that I had wanted since mine was ripped apart under agoni,ingly similar circumstances when I was only a child. These thoughts consume my every thought and the only thing that helps me cope is alcohol.

You still have a job. You might even have health insurancd. Go to a psychologist that specializes is divorces. DO IT. If I could, I would gladly sit on a couch and spill my guts for hours a d I would happily give that money away for it. Instead I sat and felt sorry for .myself, living in abject denial of how incredibly serious trouble I was in. A d now, I sit here talking to you, a younger version of myself, warning you about what lies ahead.

Heed this or you will know pain like no other. You are still in your sons life. You can still go see him. I am going away for a long time and given my poor health, broken shoulder joints, and the fact that I have all but given up on life in general, I will in all likelyhood die in prison long before my sentence is up.

I died of a broken heart because I let it happen without realizing that I had the power to change the outcome far too late.

You MUST know that you still have the ability to make things right. Don't let this happen to you. You can be a positive force in your sons life, I can't.

Get rest. Exercise. Eat right. Don't drink. Bust ass at work. Make money. Get help.

SURVIVE