Today was supposed me to be my wedding reception. I should be getting ready with my girls right now, be surrounded by my friends and be wearing my fantastic dress today. I should be excited to see all our family and friends and to eat awesome cake today.

But I'm not.

I've said it before here- we got legally married in April but the plan was always to have the reception today. Started planning for October and even sent out save the dates. We moved the reception to April 2018 because my only sister got pregnant with twins and is due in 2ish weeks. First grandkids in the family. She's had a very easy pregnancy so far but there was no way to know that would happen. She could just as easily have been in bed rest or already had them, leaving my family with tough decision as to which daughter to be with. Also, giant pregnant girl would have stolen my thunder. I don't regret this decision- I want my family there and know it was the right choice.

But it still sucks that we had to change it. It feels like I am over reacting by being upset by this since it is still happening in April. I'm so conflicted because I feel really sad today but I logically think that I probably shouldn't feel this way. It just sucks either way I look at it.

I am incredibly excited to be an auntie, and DH can't wait to be an uncle. Don't get us wrong. But at the same time we are still a upset that our big plans had to change because of hers (which is an ongoing pattern in my family... that's a rant for another day).

We are convinced we will get a call from her today saying she is having them today- to which we will show up in "I told you so" shirts.

I'll get over it. Today just sucks