I never knew this was a thing

When my egg broke and I came out to my wife & started living femme at home, it has made me more confused, not less

I still desperately want HRT and the secondary sexual characteristics it brings eg breasts & penile atrophy

But the more feminine I've tried to feel the weirder & more dysphoric it all felt

Now thanks to a comment above I've discovered r/mtfbutch and seeing less feminine MTF trans women I maybe now don't feel so weird about it

This is potentially a revelation that will help me continue forwards to HRT change I need rather than be doubting because the femininity feels a bit 'off' to me