Yes I did walk away first but only because of what you revealed to me about yourself & it made me feel insecure. The things you did made me question things & I hate that about myself when I did that for I do trust you, always have. Jealously isn't a bad thing its normal. Too much is wrong I agree. I did try, not to the extend I should have for as you said we are going in circles. Why I can say now clearly & only time apart has revealed everything that happened & why for I was totally blinded in my love for you. I made progress then side stepped & it was impossible in the end for me being around you to change. All I have done since I haven't seen you is become the Man I was & in fact a better Man. It breaks my heart saying this on here not in person. I go to a group for my anger management weekly, not that I was a bad man, only because the couple of times I did momentarily lose my composure & when You said what you said & felt I was so appalled at myself for never did I mean to make you feel like that. I've never physically hurt a woman in my life & never will. That woke me up. You used to get so angry at me & believe it or not I freaked out & why I "ran". I never wanted to, it was because of my past relationship hurts. I'm not sure this is even you. I did say to you so many wrong things to you about you. We did it to each other. I remember you said I'm losing muscle tone & you let it slip I wasn't as attractive in your eyes anymore.....we were making love at the time & I have a great body not as athletic as yours. That's just an example nothing more as I'm definitely guilty for what I said to you. I don't want to move on in life without you. I want to live our lives together. Yes you will lose me as much as I will lose you. That's self destructive & once more I see why you felt the need to do this. Because you need to feel at peace, balanced, a harmonious life, and coming from a place of love not fear. I will only promise you one thing. That is to never act like I did again. When I learnt why I was like this recently it has made a difference in how I act & think. HONESTLY most of why we are now where we are is because of me.