I want to believe her. I want to believe her with all my heart that it's not her, that is some creepy third party that is not friendly to her. I don't want to see her as an enemy, I refuse to see her as someone who wants to jeopardize my life quality.

The story did shift a little but I assume it's memory playing tricks. First she said she was in a group of contacts with them (a group out of the social board of 4chan) and would open up about her struggles , including struggled with me (I do not know how much or what she said about me) and even had emotional outbursts with them. Afterwards it was that she didn't really talk to this people more than two times.

She has lied multiple times about her social media, deleting it, getting off it. Yesterday she was trying to convince me to delete my IG but I don't want to as I feel that's what the stalker is looking for. Well today she says she deleted hers and I should delete mine therefor. I check, hers is very much online. Why lying about something so stupid ? I am not asking her to delete hers anyway and the stalker is being hostile to me currently not her.

I am tired. I am physically drained. I think her interactions with me over it stress and drain me as much as the harassment itself.

I haven't eaten well or gone to the gym all week, fuck.