Thank you, I'm sorry for not be clearer in my story about what happened. To be honest with you it wasn't the physical beatings that were the worst, it was the ostracism. It literally had a huge psychological effect on me that I'm still dealing with. And having this horrible face just makes everything 10x worse.

Being smart and different in a small town can be really hard but my parents ignored this completely and when I brought it up they blamed it on me being a (in their words) a "weirdo".

At about 14 I started developing full-blown panic attacks and ended pretty much living in my room when I wasn't at school. I did very well at high school because I studied hard since I had little else to do and I got into a great college, but I have pretty much zero self-esteem about myself. And my face is what really seals the deal.

I'm a good programmer but apart from that I don't see myself having much of a future. I'm going to get orthodontics in the future but as you say the relationship with my parents just reminds me of all the misery I've been through in my life and I don't see much point it entertaining it into the future.