Can't help because I'm not your therapist - -- - butttt---

1) sometimes the other people are assholes, and it would be nice to have someone take your side once in a while so you can build up some self esteem.

What might be something nice for you to try with your boyfriends is....next time he's complaining about SOMEONE (not something), take his side no matter what. Just say, hey boyfriend, you are right, that guy is a complete asshole! If it works well, ask him to take your side against another person at some point in the future.

2) People are mostly sitting in their houses thinking about what other people are doing. Then they go out, do odd things and go back home. Sometimes they feel bad about the odd things, sometimes they don't. You apparently remember everything. Try to forget some of those things.

3) People leave their houses when they want to go do something they like to do, when they like to do it. That's not always when you want to do it. So, if you want to get out, well, maybe join something that meets periodically where people there like to do something jointly. Go to political things, don't have to like it but at least they happen all of the time. Switch back and forth political parties for fun

4) Most people don't have very close friends, beyond a few. If you have more than one (which your boyfriend is #1 currently), consider yourself very lucky. If you have 2 more, well, you are doing outstanding. Older you get, the less you will have. It's not you, just the way it is.

5) People like getting drunk, invite all of your drunk friends to get drunk. Then let's all meet up back here in about a year and talk about AlAnon.