I'll tell you a slightly similar story of mine.. I've been pretty obsessed with a coworker of mine for 6+ months now. I knew she most likely wasn't into me but I told her how I felt about a month ago. Maybe the fact that she's gay that gave me the smallest bit of hope that she would feel the same way (she also had a gf so I kind of suck/am selfish). I'm not sure I've ever felt this way about someone (I also feel like I connect with very few people). I've definitely have never had such a strong sexual attraction to a crush. I haven't been "jilling off" for the past month because she's all I can think about. I definitely still get carried away thinking about kissing her neck when I see her but I usually change the channel. So a few days after I told her how I felt I asked her if there's any chance of anything between us and she told me that she was getting married that weekend (just the two of them). At first I was in this weird denial and probably still on a high from being brave enough to tell her how I feel... A week later it really hit me that I would never be with this person. So despite that I'm still in the middle of crying over this most nights, I think I would have still tell her how I felt. There's something really amazing about this kind of love.. I know she has imperfections (by no means a perfect person) and she can be super annoying but I like all of it. I love it when she's funny, when she's nervous, when she's showing off, when she's pissy, weird, pretentious, caring.. Exactly as she is... When she wakes up in the morning or tries to wear makeup. I also really want her to be happy. I know I want to be with someone who feels this way about me and I know that she doesn't (and I wouldn't know that unless I told her how I felt). It would be awful to date someone who didn't reciprocate this.. I would never feel good enough for them. That kind of helps me move on a little.