I know two people who have committed muder. long
The first being when I was 13. I went to school with this 16 year old boy who very obviously had mental health issues and had been through some traumatic things in his life as he had severe anger issues and did not know how to handle his emotions. One day I was at my older sister's place and my mom called. She told me that as we spoke she was watching the news about two missing teenagers. One a 13/f and the other a 16/m. Both being students who go to the same school as me. About half an hour later she calls and says they found the girl, sadly she was deceased. They located her body in the backyard in the shed. She had been gently placed in a sleeping bag with her arms crossed over her chest and all of her stuffed animals surrounding her. It was apparent that the person responsible for her death loved her. My mom was worried that I knew her, but I specifically remember saying I hope I don't know her brother just being that I only hung out with older kids. Sure enough he had been apprehended and admitted to killing her. They showed the video of him being brought into the station on TV, he was crying. Not the type of crying like he was upset he was being arrested or that he was caught, but instead upset that his sister is no longer alive and he is responsible for her death. I remember feeling so overwhelmed. I was so sad that such a young lady had lost her life and also at the same time empathic towards him because I couldn't imagine how he felt. I knew him, I knew he couldn't control himself. I was right. He didn't want to kill her, he just lost it and choked her to death. He spoke with one of my other friends and said that he couldn't sleep because every time he closed his eyes he would see her face and that he couldn't eat because all he would think about is that she can't eat anymore. He just cried and cried talking about how much he misses her and how he couldn't believe she was gone. It was incredibly sad. I don't know what has happened to him since then, all I know is that the whole situation made me question a lot of things about life.
The second was when I was 18. I had the most beautiful, amazing, hilarious and kick-ass best friend in the world. She was always so bubbly, fucking energectic, entertaining, and always making people laugh. I was staying with her around that age. Just went through a bad breakup and had to give up the apartment the boyfriend and I shared at the time so I was homeless. Something was definitely different about her. It was like her light went out. One day overheard her on the phone with her mom. She specifically said - "I don't know if I can handle this, mom. I'm thinking about maybe going to the hospital. I just can't believe this is happening. " Almost a week later I was at a party. One of our mutual friends from high school walked in and immediately after spotting me heads in my direction with this I have something to tell you look on her face. She asks me if I watched the news, I say no. She then says that my best friends brother was arrested for murder. Instantly it all made sense. Her brother was her best friend, they were both so much alike. Especially when it came to there sense of humor. It went down like this - He owed a guy his age some money. He called him to set up a time and place to meet to pay him back. Guy was worried but needed the money back so he told his friends if you can't get a hold of me, best friends brother did something to me. They meet, best friends brother murders him. It turns out he had a detailed plan written out. Basically muder guy then assume his identity. He was pulled over shortly after police recovered the burnt remains of his body on some of best friend's brother's previously owned land. He was driving guy's truck and gave police guy's Drivers license. Best friend and I never talked about it. The worst part was seeing her picture in the paper. She was on the stand, crying. She was apologizing to the family of the victim. It broke my heart.
Aye, I didn't think writing this would upset me as it has been about 15 to 20 years since both, but it kinda did. I felt bad for everyone involved in each situation. It tore them all apart individually.