This sounds like a lot of BPD. I’ve never really heard of a narc crying over a lost supply or having a “favorite person” (this is a BPD trait, which can still be “fixed” by therapy). Usually we have more than one supply.

About being discarded..I mean you’re supposed to be doing that but again you seem a little too attached to the emotional validation you can get from this thing ..where you’re supposed to get it from multiple sources..

But ok since you allowed yourself to get to this point, just move on and improve your looks/standing and pretty soon you will find another supply.

Hope you don’t start falling in love and getting attached again..cause ..hmm..that’s not the point here..