Spoons , it's like I can't help but be awkward, can you forgive me for that?

On paper we are strangers. But your story has touched me/struck a nerve so hard. I want you to get back to normal and be happy so bad. I have been dealing with people my whole life, like anybody would. I have been around depressed people before, etc. I'm no stranger to people in crisis.

But no one has ever affected me like you, you chose to write about yourself. And you did such a good job of it that I feel like I was there even though I wasn't, but the sense of injustice I feel looking at how you have been treated is real. I'm angry that the people who should care the most but have backed away because they don't know how to deal with depressed people, it's just so mean and undeserved. You deserve so much better.

You put the call out Spoons, when you did that, some people heard. I was one of those people. I may not be what you were hoping for but I am a real person who already cares deeply about you & your situation after hearing you tell it in your posts.

I don't know what else to say, my soul refuses to let me abandon you. Sometimes I guess there are just people who are going to have that effect on other people. I don't mean to be a creep or whatever, basically your just a really good person and it upsets me that all this shit happened to you and you just can't catch a break. People help me and I don't pay it forward and I should. My phone number is in a pm I sent you.

You can call me at any hour of any day Spoons. I can't promise anything accept that I want to try to be the friend or something that you're crying out for. I'm fighting this battle too and I know it's fucking hard but please don't give up, you’re young and you are just an awesome, intelligent person who obviously has so much to share with this world. Please keep reaching out to positive people around here, I sincerely hope that better people, more effective people than me will reach out to you directly soon and you and them can support each other ; I admit that there is only so much that I can do for you, maybe nothing, but regardless you deserve love and attention from good people who understand and can truly help you help yourself. You are so, so,so worth the effort ; you are special and Loved. FFS, stop criticizing yourself, seriously! =)