PTSD ruined my life

I used to be worried about getting in trouble, I blamed myself for a decade, and didn't tell anyone. Then, after a few other situations happened, I realized it wasn't all my fault: my reaction could've been better, but reactions are caused by actions and I wasn't the one provoking. I decided to tell my mom about it, and she thinks she was abused before, then tried it with me. Another girl did something similar, she was naked, and came and stood between my legs, and I just talked to her normal, and she said "we should go to my daddy's friends house" which he isn't her daddy, and I think something happened there. I have a mental health counselor, I just don't know about bringing it up to her. These people act like I'm a monster, I could've reacted better, I could've reacted worse, the bottom line is I shouldn't have been in that situation. I've come to terms with it, accepted that my reaction could've been better, and that's all I can do is control my reactions. I don't care what these people think, we played all the time and she never touched me like that. Our parents left us alone because they knew I wasn't a problem.

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