This is the most accurate post here.

I am selfish, I always have been, and yes op it sounds like you have the philosophers soul, maybe this works for you, but it won't forever.

It's a simple question of what do you want out of x.

As a rp man by raising, the biggest lesson I've ever learned is simple and often misunderstood.

You are what the world sees you do. If you're a person who is constantly adding value to the world, people will want a slice of it, who doesn't want free shit? That value however MUST come from excess. As a buffet dwindles in size what happens? People move to a new table. The same is to be said of charity and desire. If you're really bad, you may have nothing left to fuel yourself.

You must always focus your time on increasing the size of your banquet.

The second part of this is, you must be selective in who sits at the table. Both because you are the company you keep, and also because it creates perceived scarcity 'in access' to a real bounty of resources, 'your hard built buffet'.

Anyone who comes to your table can beg, but it's yours, they have to be a VIP to be seated. This isn't to say you don't calculate the value of playing the benevolent God, it actually raises interest in the table when done correctly as others believe there's a chance at entry.

Above all though, remember your value is a limited resource, very limited. The less time you spend building it, the less it can be spent without damaging it's replenishment rate. It is an upkeep that only grows and never ends. Its a buffet that always needs new better bigger courses added, and you are the owner, bouncer, and host.

It is your duty to improve yourself, so that you can add value to those that can add value to you in kind. It is the ultimate truth of anyone who expects to gain anything from the world in a meaningful way.