Since we are all already dead we can choose to do nothing or everything.

The sun will still rise tomorrow.

But since we are dead, why not fuck life hard? Why not fucking try something fucking crazy new every fucking day? I mean fuck, what do we have to lose?

At least we didn't die of fucking boredom.

Fuck the suicidal forest. Go to Japan, drink sake, fuck a pokemon, eat a blowfish and wrestle a sumo. And quit being a pussy.

Live your life like you know they would want you to. You are a good man. Smart man. Its not over. You can get another job. Have a fulfilling relationship. You can do anything you want in life.

But you got to accept the fact you are broken with depression and grief you never process completely. That's okay. It's not your fault. None of this terrible circumstances that has happened to you is you fault. None of it. So quit punishing yourself. And het help. Please please please go see your doctor and tell him it her the truth. You are so sad you are hopeless, sad and suicidal. And you want help. They will get you help.

Better yet go to the emergency room. I would take you.

Text CHAT at 741741 a counselor is waiting to talk to you right this moment.

It's okay not to be okay. Start there. You been there a long time.

Someone needs you. You just don't know it yet. Please take the first step tonight by texting CHAT at 741741

Wish you peace of heart, mind, soul Pat