I'm not sure if i should just file for divorce and move on with my life. Or stay and hope he realizes how much of a mistake he made and wants to fix it before i resent him completly. We are separated because hes not happy and cheated. Now hes trying to date the girl he cheated with but her family doesnt like him. I dont know if i'm still here because i know it wont work out with her and i still love him or if its because im afraid to let go. If he does come back i'm going to want him to rebuild the trust and never contact or see her again. But i dont think he will want to do those things. Ive thought about sleeping with someone else and moving on but am afraid I'm doing it for all the wrong reasons. This is the first person i've fully trusted and been completly comfortable with, he's my best friend. I'm afraid that i've been hurt so much by this that I'm never going to let anyone else get close enough to hurt me like that again. Through this all I have stopped reading which i loved to do, cant focus on school, I dont commit like i used to at work and everyone i know sees how miserable I am. But when he flirts with me, or hits me up late at night after hanging out with her I respond because part of me is just happy to have that. I'm still relatively young (29) and attractive someone else might think I'm amazing and treat me as such but i cant seem to just let go even though i know holding on is hurting me.