I've been in love with a girl I've known for 6 years and I've never been able to tell her. I was always too fat or too depressed or she had a boyfriend or a combination of the three. I lost 75 lbs last year but it wasn't enough. I hung out with her for years just to be near her. It literally made me happier just being with her.

Since we hung out a lot, we became very good friends, the whole time liking her. I'm one of her best guy friends and she consistently says "Love you" in a brother-sister type way and every time I look like a weirdo because I never say it back. Because it kills me that every time she says that she grows further and further away. I'm quite good at suppressing my feelings so not a soul knows how I feel about her. I can't remember how many time I've tried to forget her but every time it's failed.

I moved away to college this fall and I thought that would help but it's only made it worse. I hit those lows much more frequently than I did during high school. I miss class weekly and I have no motivation to do anything. I also have no drive to go after other girls, so my friends think I'm just a loser that doesn't have any game (I'm in a fraternity at a very large school so hooking up is very frequent). I can't even get drunk to forget her because when I do I end up missing even more class and then I can't even scrape by like I am.

FeelsBadMan