I have no idea what I'm doing with my life.

I'm a 2L at an okay law school. I just kinda fell into it. I was going into my senior year of undergrad, about to graduate with a degree in Philosophy, and I figured that I wouldn't be able to get a good job with that (combined with my lack of work experience), so I took the LSAT, scored well, and applied to a few law schools.

Next thing I know, I've been accepted to a few schools and I pick one, if only to stave off the job search and have some kind of job security waiting for me at the end of the tunnel.

Don't get me wrong, I love studying the law. It's a fantastic intellectual exercise and I want to help people, but I'm terrified by the thought of getting sued for malpractice. I'm terrified of fucking up. I'm terrified of letting my client down because I'm not good enough. It's this fear that paralyzes me. It makes me question whether or not I'm going into the right profession.

And the worst part? My undergrad was paid for by my parents. My law school is being paid for by my parents. I'm immensely grateful to them for putting me in a position that many are not able to be in, but when I think about my fears in relation to the fears of those who are putting themselves in so much debt just to get their education, I know I sound like a little bitch.

I hate myself for having this fear. I don't want to fail, because that would just be a waste of my parents' efforts.

I don't want to be afraid.