Ok, penis that's not mine...

I'm curious about bottoming. Specifically with a pre-op trans girl. I am repulsed by the thought of man and my wife is uncomfortable with a strap on. She's given me permission to seek this out and possibly she would participate, but Craigslist is weird to her and she doesn't want me to use a prostitute. She'd totally cool with it if I meet someone through other means...

Problem is I live in the middle of the fucking desert (Mojave). She said we'd go to Hollywood together, but I don't, just seems like a whole bunch of IDK...

I don't feel I should ask this directly in /r/asktransgender. It's total objectification and this would be a fetish there. I don't want to objectify them, but I can't help but to do so in this situation. There's no other way. I realize it's offensive as fuck. Sorry ladies. Questions open to all.

So wanting to bottom, never done more than a finger and a toy. Can't bring myself to be with a man, cause zero physical attraction. Wife won't use strap on. Permission to find a "lover" for us but no CL/prostitute. Pre-op/non-op is wanted and passable. No idea where to look and how to approach this. I also understand hormones getting in the way of erection. I feel dirty for asking this. I have no questions in my sexuality here. Only attracted to women.

I'm straight, but I want a penis at least once. Wife cool. We're both picky/too picky maybe. Need to know how to go about it.

I've repeated myself a lot in this post. Trying to make sense of it. I don't wanna sound like a creep. There is little to help that. It just feels dirty/creepy.

Help me make sense if you can? Guys who have done this, worth it? Or no? Transgender women, Am I chaser by definition?

Thanks