The stereotypical personality for someone of my appearance, and my real personality are flipped on opposite ends of the spectrum.

I am a nerd who is into anime, cosplay, gaming, computers, and works all day in a career that involves sitting in a dark room on a computer doing extremely geeky things. My first instinct is to run away and be alone when strangers try to talk to me and I have to psych myself up for a full 3 minutes before even using the phone to talk to a stranger. My friends are the guys and girls others tend to pick on in school, and those who willing spend their lunch hours inside to be in the computer lab every day. I do not smoke. I do not drink. I have no idea what to say to guys, and would rather run away than chat.

Want to know what I look like? I am a tall 5'7'' who might weigh 120lbs soaking wet. Long thick hair and face shape that people would kill for. Despite my low body fat % I have great boobs and a fairly ok butt. I look like the biggest bitch in all of history who 'probably has 8 boyfriends, is a total slut, and goes clubbing everynight to meet people and get them to buy me free things'.

Wanna know how I paid for my geeky tech university degree? I did runway modeling and photoshoots.

When making new friends (the types of people like myself who will game all night over skype and do board game nights), I need to be very careful. The types of people I enjoy being around are very quick to dismiss me as a 'bitchy type' upon first glance. My boyfriend of 6 years is a short, very skinny, adorable nerd with big glasses. As awkward as they come. I want to personally punch every nasty person who feels the need to tell me (in public) that I can do better. And I want to murder the dudes who used to tell my bf that he didn't deserve me. Don't judge based on looks please.