You are the reason that your person acted that way. Thats why your writing is washed in guilt.

You know you did the same thing you do with other people. You played the same game that gets you the thrill of being wanted because you felt like nothing your entire life. Every person you have loved has abused you. Except for the person you are speaking of in your post. They loved you. And you loved and still love them.

You are hurting them because they tried to help you heal. You are hurting them because they brought up memories you had hiding deep inside long ago. You hurt them for making you feel the pain of remembering the way you hate the person that actually caused the pain you are remembering.

You hate this person for no reason. And the guilt you have over whats happening is far more painful than the pain of the abuse they reminded you of. And for that, you are punishing them more.

They will not feel the pain you inflict after tonight.

Tomorrow you will be alone in this game.

You have allow stubbornness to kill someone else's kindness.

You have destroyed a person.

You are guilty.

You will never have closure. They will not need it.