I'm with you, counseling will hopefully help me pick better the next time around.

I chose two women who matched my parents shit treatment of me. The first being like my dad, the second like my mom. The issue for me was accepting it when I knew they weren't good to me because I thought that was what I deserved.

I won't accept any more shit partners. I'm fucking awesome! I'm learning to enjoy building my life around my goals and desires, not sublimating them for my partners gain and to my detriment.

Nothing stings quite like being used then discarded, but that's life sometimes. I knew my most recent wife was only with me because of what I provided, I just hoped in my heart she could love me back. Her actions spoke differently for over a decade.

Wasted 26 years on two pieces of shit and there's no time machine for making that up.

Hugs!