Something that has been fucking with my head a lot lately is the idea of time and space.

I keep remembering as if from a past or future life (not that it matters either way) things that are about to happen. But this means I've either lived this life before, will live it again, or am living all possible lives at once. The last seems the most probable. Making time an utter illusion. The question is how do we escape from this timeline into another without making a decision. Time FEELS linear but also is predictable, and if it is predictable to an exact degree, this means the future has already happened. So is the point to remember the future, or teach ourselves in the past. This is just my thought process though I sort of get the answer now, if you don't get it you will in a minute. So When we die we either live the same life again, or a new timeline starts from the moment of birth. But this doesn't work because there is no symmetry... no overlap between past and future. So All times exist simultaneously. I refrain from using "timelines" here because time is just now. More something impossible to put words to. Yet somehow I see it coming, and somehow I cannot change the past. Things have happened and will happen. If I can change the past I have to forget what it was, If I want to change the future I have to remember it. Or I can be lost and at it's whim, living only moment to moment... So when I remember the future, it is because of a past life, and when I forget the past it's because of a future life.

In order to start a truly new life after death, one must first remember the life being lost in its entirety. Which is why people with near death experiences see their lives flash before their eyes. And in the moment of death can either forget everything and live a new life, or keep all their memories and live the same life again. That's my theory.

So matter just remembers itself, and life has forgotten itself, which is why it needs to have this experience for some reason.

I get so caught up in this shit, my god.