It's so weird... All the stuff I struggled with as a witness, like I drank too much and I really struggled with intense self-destructive sexual impulses (sorry if that's tmi)... I'm not struggling with those things anymore. I went to the elders so many times for help, and only received reproof and soft-shunning, which just made things spiral ever downward. When I was df'd, I finally went to therapy, and found ways to heal myself.

I'm not angry all the time anymore.

My marriage with my pimi husband is the best it's ever been, because we finally went to marriage counseling instead of going to the elders where (again) there was just judgement and 'be more submissive and be a better jw'. He actually lets me have a voice now, and isn't trying to smash me into the one size fits all jw wife mold.

My relationship with my kids is better because I don't have to smush them with all the watchtower fears.