wow just wow. This whole being obsessed with women being virgins thing is already messed up but then to be pissed off at your girlfriend for being sexually assaulted? That is seriously messed up. I feel really bad for you and I'm sorry he is treating you this way. You should never have to feel guilty over this sort of thing. Obviously you weren't comfortable with telling him you were sexually assaulted and it isn't uncommon for sexual assault victims to think of it like that. Some really do cope with it by thinking as you do and I don't feel like you should be shamed for that either. Also, even if you were never assaulted, women generally don't bleed when they lose their virginities. Bleeding from something like that is often from a lack of lube, too much force, etc not just because you are a virgin.