thank you.

i've had similar sort of "crushes" on my friends and classmates growing up but they never turned into that "i wouldn't mind having a relationship with this person" kind of feeling y'know. it was always mostly just aesthetic attraction or purely platonic. i'm hoping this goes the same way but it has already gone on far longer than any others i had and the though of "just not doing anything about it" is starting to make me kind of upset so i'm starting to fear this might be more.

therapy isn't going to do much for me because the majority of the therapists in my country are not lgbt+friendly and those who are put a lot of stereotypes on you so that might just do more harm than good but i do want to experiment a bit when i get the chance because my sexuality is a huge mess right now.