I mean that I'm pessimistic about meeting someone with whom there is mutual attraction and being in a similar place in life. I feel like I need to lose some weight and I'm just tired of finding out new ways to be disappointed by dating.

For example last night some guy from the apps from months ago popped up and I remembered he was cute so I went and hung out. While at the bar he said "can we just agree to be really awesome friends". And I asked him if he was setting boundaries and we had a weird conversation. Then an hour later he tried to kiss me and it was nice but then he bit my lip and when I told him to cut it out he basically kicked me out of his place. But followed it up with a text to tell me he had a lovely time. And I'm at a point where it's just one more thing in a string of bullshit encounters. And I don't want to feel bitter about all this but I do.