I’m really annoyed and need to vent.  Since I got sober I can actually feel things again yay!  BUT, I do have anger issues which I’ve discovered that I tend to focus on now thing.  Right now it's my new apartment situation. I moved into a new apartment 5 weeks ago and it’s been a nightmare.  I’ve got between 5-10 cockroaches a day.  Every time I tell them they are coming from a hole in the baseboard they just send another exterminator.  Like my apartment needs to be filled with more poison every 2 weeks!  I need the hole fixed!  Ignored.

I’ve got a next door neighbor who beat his girlfriend so bad her parents had to come move her stuff out.  He also beats his dog-I can hear it.  He plays video games between 12-15 hours a day.  I would even mind if it was a tv but it is this repetitive Boom boom boom because he is shooting at things.
I’ve told the office at least 5 times and they put 2 noise notices on the wrong neighbors doors, so the I had to apologize to brand new neighbors so they don’t hate me.  (See why I’m getting angrier)?  They did give him a notice and he has since turned it up.  The lease was in the girlfriends name so I’m pretty sure he’s moving out at the end of the month.

Yesterday I was sitting in the lobby area because it’s too loud in my apartment and this woman was sitting there waiting.  She asked me if I was waiting and I said "no I can’t go home cause its too loud and they (pointing at office) won’t do anything”.  Whoops an office employee overheard me.  Now obviously this is totally my fault.  I shouldn’t have said anything at all.  This is my sober anger bubbling up.  When I got home there was a notice on my door with a first warning that I slandered the building.  One more infraction and I get evicted.  I was psychically shaking. Oh I wanted to drink!

I have excellent credit.  I have lived in apartments for 30 years and my landlords have always loved me.  I’ve left places so clean they have rented them the same day.

Problem is I am so upset by this.  I barely slept.  I hate that the office hates me even though I feel I am in the right.  I am so paranoid that I will do something wrong and they will evict me!  Should I pay the $2000 to get out of my lease and get a new apartment and learn a lesson about my sober anger?  Lets face it I would have spent that money on beer and wine!  Good news is the feeling of swallowing that anger with alcohol only stayed with me for about 15 minutes and I breathed through it.  I so wanted to numb the pain and gain some confidence by apologizing to them.  But I’m unsure of what to do. I do know I will not drink and I have to face this problem.

I’m so sorry this is long.  If you have any advice to give I’d appreciate it.