Hi guys, just a warning that this post includes references to depression and suicidal thoughts.

I am a final year student, I've learned extra languages, I've been the leader of multiple uni clubs, I have excellent grades, I'm an honours student, I did a long exchange, I was an editor for my uni magazine, I have a long list of varied legal experience in criminal, commercial and privacy law, I worked for the government and private practitioners, I interned for a judge, I've received a number of scholarships and awards, I've been published multiple times.

I have failed every single clerkship and grad job application I have ever made, and I've made a lot. Private firms say I should be working in government, government doesn't want me. I just failed my 10th application this year, last year I was interviewed by 10 different firms and failed them all, overall I would have sent out around 50 different applications.

I really, really don't want to bring up anything for whoever is reading this thing but I am suicidally depressed, and it is obviously interfering with the only thing I have been successful in: my grades. It will be a miracle if I make it through this year, what the hell do I do? (I am already seeing a psychologist). I guess this says I am not mentally strong enough to succeed anyway.

Cheers and sorry.