I've never had a Dom. But, I long for the right one. I have always had, not just fantasies, but, also, actual desires, to have a Dom, who understands me & my history of childhood sexual abuse, by an older sibling &, once I was widowed, being targeted by creepy males, one of whom, arranged for me to be drugged & gangraped (I didn't know he was behind it; & I did not know I was being followed/targeted by them). &, while I was still unaware that this 70+ yr old ex family friend was behind all those arrangements & he, himself, sexually assaulted me. I'm sorry; idk if any of this is legible. But, I find this thread comforting, even though I have never had a Dom. I know that these predators took advantage of me, knowing I'm naturally more submissive. But also, they took advantage of my grief & my desperate emotional, mental, financial situation. Idk if any of you understand. Thank you, to the person I'm replying to.