Well, the words I used will be very different from yours. I believe all illness is a spiritual dis-ease, so our root causes will be different on how that manifested into our body. But a massive part of it was owning the fact that I have the power to heal myself. For 12 years every doctor dismissed me, told me I was just making it up, absolutley demoralizing, I felt abandoned and helpless. All my white cells were being destroyed, or over producing, but even that wouldn't get their attention. I had about 2 hours a day that I felt kinda awake, but otherwise I was utterly exhausted, I had no memory, chronic syncope and passing out, incredibly weak, very low life force. I had so many doctors just be offensive, one called me lazy and prescribed sprints twice a day. It just made me give up on life, gave up all hope in people, which made everything get worse. I had to get to the point where I realized 'nobody' is going to help me, this is going to have to be a spiritual self healing. I did a lot of telling myself I CAN heal myself, I'm doing so much better now, lots of script like that. Once my brain started working better, then I started working on building up my energy body, and this was very important! I did a lot of visualization work on healing and rebuilding that. It took me about 2 weeks for the pain to go away, then about 1.5 years to feel 95% better energy wise. For me it was largely due to feeling a loss of faith in people. From being hurt from everyone around me, everyone I loved, my coworkers, or doctors. It just made me give up, so that manifested in my body by shutting it down. So try to see where some of your deepest core wounds are, and start working on healing that.