I was in love with a teacher. I attended all of his classes and always tried to impress him but be cool about it. Ask for books to read, ... every opportunity I could get. I dropped out during my last year but I still attended uni visits and sit togethers about ethics he held. On one of those uni visits he offered me the "Du" ( the personal approach, in German we use "sie", formal and "du"). My heart dropped. He even invited me to a table top thing they had at a local fantasyshop. Of course I joined. After I while we met up regularly to sit on my couch and play Magicka, one evening he said "Are you... are you interested in me more than a friend?" And once again, my heart dropped. Fuck, I didn't know how to respond. "I don't see you that way, at least I didn't but u could think about it. I could talk to my wife about it." What the. My heart as racing, I mumbled a "Uhm, yes i am." Having a crush and trying to spend more time with him was one thing but actually fulfilling that thought was another. I didn't know what to feel, wether I liked it or not. Next time we met up he said his wife is cool with it because she doesn't see me as a competition. Wow, okay. There I was in a situation with my former teacher that I was crazy about, his hand approaching mine. He asked if I wanted to kiss him. I was very reluctant and really didn't know what to do, it was such an odd and new situation. I decided to kiss him and well, it was the most terrible kiss I ever had. Didn't feel good at all. My one year long attraction for this man vanished in an instant and there I was, telling him that I don't want to do any of that with him. He was very nice about it but resulted in him having a crush on me. We still have contact and overcame that whole thing but still, the weirdest fucking story.