Since I was a child, my mom never believed any of my injuries or sicknesses to be real. While I never got horribly injured to the point where my life was on the line, there were times when I would sprain my ankle, break a toe, get severe food poisoning, get a horribly infected cut, etc and I would be told "You're fine. Walk it off, it'll be better tomorrow." Even with my mental health issues. When I was getting into a really bad depression around 14 years old, my mother told me "Stop using your (recently deceased) dad as an excuse for being lazy and not doing anything with your life". A few years later when I would bring up the fact that I'm pretty sure I have anxiety, I was told "No you don't. Your cousin (who is honestly a complete wreck in every way with mental illnesses) has anxiety. You don't. Stop making excuses."

Even nowadays, there are tons of little things that I would like to go to a doctor for but are either told "No, you're fine" or I will simply not bring it up. And I can't even say what they are to be exact because I've never had anything checked out. I just know that they don't feel right and they don't go away on their own anymore. My wrist gets horrible pain every now and then, I think I may have PCOS, depression and anxiety, I know I have a subacromial impingement on my left shoulder due to work (thanks to the in-house physical therapist at work) but I've never actually done anything about it, my collarbone/sternum hurts very bad at times which said therapist thinks I had a sternoclavicular sublaxation or something due to work again. But again I have no idea if that is actually correct.

My boyfriend will push me to go see a doctor or psychologist when something bad comes up, but then I second guess myself and say "Maybe I'm not actually injured/have anxiety/etc, I don't know. I'm probably making it worse than it is. It's silly to go to a doctor for this, I'm not actually dying." Even though I know some of these things I definitely should get checked out. I just feel like I'm begging for attention when I'm in pain and want to go to the doctor or anything and I just tuck it away until it gets worse. It's been 25 years and not once have I actually been to a doctor/hospital for anything other than my physicals for school or for things as a very small child.