Dated a girl in high school that some of my friends at the time liked too. I lived with her for about 9 months, got tight with her family as we got to know each others friends pretty good as well. Long story short things went sour in my life with my family, i went into a deep depression and she dumped me to get back with her ex from her previous school. During that time some of the friends i had started acting shady towards me spreading gossip around school that i went crazy. And they tried getting with her behind my back even though they knew she just got back with her ex. But she liked the attention and would condone it anyways. So eventually my friends at the time started disowning me at school whenever she was around. Long story short after seeing one of the friends getting touchy feely with her and being in the mind frame that i was in at the time, i got up and kicked in a teachers file cabinent and started bitching out everyone around for the lack of respect, rumors, and for playing with my emotions. Even the teacher for letting the d bag touch my ex that i still had deep feelings for at the time. I told them all i was going home to get a gun and was coming back to shoot up the school. I sped out of the parking lot like the enraged asshole that i was as my tires were throwing gravel and rocks at every car around. I got home and started looking for my dads gun as my mother tried to stop me. She eventually talked me out of it, convincing me that she was just a dumb piece of gash, and that there is better women out there that will love me blah blah blah. The school called the police, they declared me mentally unstable, prescribed me valuum's and a few other drugs, and i got off the hook. A week later i stopped taking the pills as i tried to keep my mind on better things. I eventually recovered a few months later. Looking back, even now after 10 years and many more failed relationships that left scars, a part of me will always feel the betrayal and beauty in love. And how it can change you and make some of the strongest people fall. It scares me... to the point where i can no longer trust or date women. I have not become gay, but i can honestly say i am no longer attracted to women mentally. I am however, still attracted to them physically.