Hard to explain. I find lots of traits and reactions, or lack thereof due to experiences and traumas that let me relate to Amos. I feel like I'm half his mass and filtered, but very similar. The chicken can reaction on Eros is similar to getting hit in the face for me. I used to get blackout angry. His water is wet, sky is up threats are similar to my vendettas in the past. Our shared feeling that we are monsters trying to be better is the tip of it all.

I'm older and less angsty, but feel the urges. I feel like I've built a safe mode that switches on so don't feel anything so that I don't do anything, when I'm triggered by anything but real pain; like Amos.

My guiding light is my wife who is truly good. I have a little version of her living in my head to balance me.