What’s been making you sad lately?

I know my spouse doesn't love me. One major clue is that we haven't been intimate, not even a hug, in about 4 years and we sleep in different rooms.

To compensate for the void I feel, I have a rewarding career I love and I work almost every day, I have an amazing teenage daughter, I am developing friendships which I haven't had in my 25 year relationship/marriage, I have a few new hobbies, I exercise, and at 50 years old, I am in the best shape of my life. My spouse doesn't say much.

For about 5 or so years, I've been drinking pretty heavy to numb my pain and as of tonight, I haven't had a drink of alcohol in about 3 weeks. I can't numb my pain anymore. My spouse never discussed my unusual drinking habit and now that I stopped, hasn't said a word about me not drinking.

I know my marriage sucks and it's at least half my fault. I think I have fixed most of what was broken with me. I will be getting rid of the dead weight and the source of my sadness in the very near future.

Wish me luck.

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