Might be somewhat late but screw it. Well back in highschool I fell for this girl real hard. This was the only first time where I was without a doubt sure that I only wanted her. So I met her a few months after ending a relationship where someone basically no longer cared about me towards the end. So when I met this girl I was oh so cautious about how I went about this when interest sparked. After talking for a while I knew that this girl was someone who I liked, over the next few weeks I just got more and more into the hole. I told her how I felt and she told me that I had to wait until the school year started so we could get to know each other more, this was by all means fine by me. Fast forward a year and this girl was telling me how much she liked me and how I was the only one she even bothered to care for in that way, and god damn she showed it. Unfortunately for me back then, every time I asked her to be my girlfriend she would bring up excuses about being too into school (I know this is a big red flag but she actually was crazy about getting good marks in school, to this day). Fast forward another year and I was still crazy about this girl, more than ever, there's still signs from her showing her liking me and only being interested in me. Everyone in school pretty much knows this and always tell me how I'm the only person she ever bothers to care about in that sense. But the school thing is still in the way and although it is bothering me at this point I totally respect it 100% so I gladly still wait. Fast forward half a year and shit just got deeper and deeper. She is telling me how she wants to marry me and want to move away with me and this is wrecking me internally. She dedicated the song Just Breathe by Pearl Jam to me and it felt like the most bittersweet feeling ever. And then night I was discussing with a friend how I would have to hate her in order to get over her. And two minutes later a mural friend tell me that this girl I like has secretly been dating one of our mutual friends. And kept it a secret because the friend is a girl and she was scared. I was so torn but it felt worse when I was told some of the things she said "don't tell Brianthecatato, he'll hate me if he find out" and fuck it didn't help that during these months was when she told me all these things. When confronted I couldn't even blame her or be mad, I just felt to betrayed and alone. She told me "all I ever did was think about you, I'm so sorry, you don't deserve this". Fuck that hurt the worst. This was the closest person I've ever been to, she was my best friend and I felt like everything was suddenly so alone. TLDR: Got too close to someone and ended up being a front for someone