Junior high, this drop dead gorgeous girl hits on me, we hook up, everything appears to be fine. Good times. About a month later, out of the blue, she tells me to take a hike. I wasn't 'in love' with her so it wasn't that big of a deal, and I had a few other girls who were flirting with me so my ego wasn't totally wrecked... and then... a friend of mine tells me that she told him that some dude asked her "why are you dating Rokujin, you're a pretty girl and can do so much better". Ouch #1. Then about a week after that I hear from the same friend that she's going around telling people that she would never even have talked to me in the first place because "she doesn't associate with ugly people."

Now, I'm not ugly. I'm not Brad Pitt either. In fact, some people (other than my parents) will tell you I'm a good looking guy. Reason I'm pointing this out is because no matter how many times people will tell me that I look good it will never change the way I feel inside. I have overcome a lot of BS in life and this is the one thing that will not go away no matter how many compliments I get, how many women I hook up with, etc.

That girl made me HATE myself for almost 20 years.

Good news: writing this shit down is making me realize how ridiculous it is to hold a grudge for 20 years.

Side note: I still adore women. Won't judge an entire sex because of one bad apple.