I have a phone interview with one company today, an in person interview with another later today, I had an in person interview with a third this past friday, and a phone interview with a fourth on this coming friday.

I guess ... where I'm going professionally. I'm a web developer, these are all front end positions except for today's in person which is more of a tech project manager role. And honestly? that one sounds the most appealing. My last job came packed with a lot of imposter syndrome anxiety and I just don't know if I can handle taking more of that on. My fiance says it gets easier once your first programming language is under your belt, but when was the last time he cried in a bathroom panic stricken that he was one project away from everyone finding out what a fake he is? I just want a job that pays well so I can get the fuck out of debt which is why I learned to code in the first place. if I can earn the same amount being a TPM as I can as a dev then why not? I like front end development but I'd be a massive liar if I said I was at all passionate about it. I'm not passionate about anything except getting the mother fuck out of student debt and for me, coding is just a means to an end. But not going through with another FE job feels like copping out. it feels like 'wahh it was too haaard so I quiiit.' and I'm alot of things, not all of them great, but quitter isn't one.

so idk. whatever. no one's offered me a job yet so it's pointless to worry about it at this point.