You want to talk about it?

I know that when you're in the middle of a really bad time you're just in the middle of a really bad time. I know what it's like when you just want things to stop; it's not that you want to die, you just want it to stop. You get to a point where it's just more than one human being should ever have to deal with on their own.

I'll be honest, I'm doing a bit better now but there are days when I want to go out and walk into the river and just make it all stop. But if I do that, I won't be here any more; I won't be able to see Harold (a nice homeless guy that's got some mental health issues that I met my first week up here) on my way to the market and bring him some food and see if he's doing okay. Who's going to check on him? Who's going to call my grandma when there are fires burning through her lands and no one else even gives a fuck about her anymore?

Then I think who's going to take care of my cats? They're fucking stupid and they'll run out into the street first thing and get hit by a car. I won't ever be able to get to present my stupid cyberpunk universe shit at Comicon if I die.

It's all about finding shit to hold onto. I won't tell you that what you're feeling is wrong or that what you decide is wrong, but really think about what your life is, who is around you, who needs you - and who can help you. It sounds like most of your life has been hard, but nothing is forever. The only constant in life is change, it's the only thing we can depend on. I'm sure some days are a little better than others, some days are definitely worse.

I mean it though, if you want someone to unload on that's been there, we can talk. It can help getting it outside of you even if only for a short while.