I can relate 100% to this. I become downright delusional when trying to convince myself to smoke pot again.

I was always a daily smoker who would start smoking the minute I wake up. I cannot do moderation and I have never been able to do moderation. Yet, every single time I convince myself to smoke, its because I lie to myself and imagine that THIS TIME will be different. This time I'll be able to moderate my use.

I was literally wanting to go pick up during work. But trying to convince myself that I would only use it at work just this one time. Then I would go to only evenings, 2-3 nights a week. Bahaha yeh right. The addicted mind is ridiculous and will use any excuses to get what it wants.