Since my breaking up decision is made, I just want to chat a little bit. You made a good work thinking and typing so I'll give you the answers.

I believe you and Julie probably have a lot of unexpressed emotions. I wonder how much of the information from your post you have shared with her directly. And not during a heated debate or a fight.

We are pretty much squeezed oranges right now. During the past 6 years we shared pretty much everything and most of the debates are about her not working or not pursuing anything in life. That upsets me a lot because she becomes a burden for me because she doesn't want any kids either. She's afraid of giving a birth and a couple of years ago she told me that and I said "ok, let's not have any kids". So right now we're stuck, she became a dreamer and I feel that I need to go on. It's gonna be hard for me to get back to myself and start dating other women. Some of people here are right about taking a break. I need to take a break from any women and relax. Maybe going to a camp or somewhere far away from the things that remind me of this feeling. Wish I had more time with my job.

Hitting someone, anyone, is wrong. We've heard this a thousand times. Violence is basically a gateway drug to oppressive behavior. It is at the root of "do as I say because I say so."

No kidding, it's wrong. But you are far away from the truth if you don't see the similiarity between hitting somebody because the thing the person says are wrong and you are tired of that, and telling a person an idiot.

I did slap her, but I've never hurt her dignity. That's why today she's not mad at me. We talked it through and admitted to act a little crazy yesterday. She said that she feels stressed out these days and I cannot help her with that, she's been like that for the past 4 years. She doesn't need a boyfriend, she needs a therapist, but that's without me. Im out.