K? When I was 17 I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder after being admitted to a mental hospital for suicidal thoughts. The mental hospital was hell, they were mean to us, they painted all the Windows over with grey paint so we couldn't see outside, and they made us sit in silence for hours at a time. When I got out I had nightmares of being there, every little thing I did made me afraid to get sent back. I copied by drinking, a lot. I got black out drink 4 times after getting released, I had never drank before getting admitted. Hell, I even tried hanging myself with a leather belt and a pull up bar in my bedroom door way.

I was bullied in highschool, kids used to throw rocks at me, call me a goat fucker, a school shooter, and a factor. 2 kids even jumped me in the hallway once, pulling my good over my head, pushing me to the ground, and kicking the shit out of me. Hell, I even faced abuse at home. My mom told me id die alone because nobody would ever love me, and she did nothing when my step dad hit me. I coped by getting angry and depressed. I've been on several different anti depressants, most recent being welbutrin. I also went to 6 months of therapy, and had to see a psychologist multiple times where I was told I have symptoms of PTSD. My depression was so bad that I had to take a dosage they don't even make in a single pill, I had to take a 300mg and a 150mg pill together to get my full dosage.

It doesn't matter if you went through your (self diagnosed) mental illness and came out all right, other people have it different. I know I sure as shit didn't come out as fortunate.