Okay I didn't want to upset you but you seem to have taken well to the other criticism.

It is my belief that BDD is a made up disorder given to anyone who thinks they're ugly or has problems with their appearance. There's a guy on Reddit here, who is an actual 1/10, like deformed ugly (no offence to him, I think he's accepted it anyways) whose therapist told him he had BDD because he wasn't doing well with girls, had problems with his appearance etc. My point is that even a really, conventially ugly person can be told they have BDD, which is absolutely ridiculous. An ugly person (not saying you are), who is treated poorly by others and doesn't do well with the opposite sex because of their looks should be told that their appearance is the problem and they have every reason to worry about it. It makes my blood boil, that people will say "it's all in your head" to a physically ugly person, while meanwhile that person will be treated so harshly by the world for factors he can't control. But life, Reddit, this sub, is really all about side stepping the harsh truths of life. Trying to find an excuse or cope for everything. Deluding yourself.

And how does BDD develop. It's not like one day you wake up and oh you just happen to have BDD. My theory is that BDD mainly comes from conflicted self image. In other words, you see yourself in the mirror and you look different than in your carefully crafted, well angled selfies, or than in candid pictures taken by your relatives from afar or whatever. So you walk around all day having a mental image of yourself at your best, thinking the you in the perfected and deceitful pictures is what you actually look like, so you avoid mirrors to not have this idea challenged. And when you actually find out what you look like, you see all the flaws you do actually have, that you were able to hide before with the angles and the cropping, you realize you're a point or two less than what you thought you were, which can be absolutely devastating, and is one of the worst things to happen, your self image being hazy. Now, I'm sorry to say this: It's going to be hard to hear: You don't have to believe it if you don't want to. But how you see yourself is how others see you too. You don't just magically look differently, it's not some random brain problem. Other people notice you look different in some pictures than others. Every single person I've seen who says they have BDD has something "off" about them, something that makes them look weird, that makes them look much different in certain pictures. You will never see a conventially good looking (a pretty girl or a handsome man) have BDD because there is absolutely nothing to be conflicted about what they look like. Not only does the mirror give them insane dopamine rushes, but also people will give positive feedback on their looks. If you look in the mirror and are disgusted when you turn to the side (and see a crooked nose, weak chin, whatever), you do have those problems. Not necessarily ugly but you have flaws. Now I think if you have anxiety or depression this will only exacerbate the issue, for a normal brained person would not focus on his glaring flaws.

Anyhow, I'd say you're somewhat attractive. You did look better then, and you do look better in selfies. In today's pictures, you look absolutely miserable and not very attractive but not that bad either. I'm not going to deconstruct your looks since you didn't ask but there you have it. But currently, I'd say you're a 4.5/10. It's not that bad.

I'm sorry I had to say this, but please get it together. Oh boo hoo you're "the ugliest person in the world", everyone has problems. I absolutely hate my looks too sometimes, and in the beginning I would neurotically google these topics to try to find a cope, etc. But after much self examination and a long individual journey I have just accepted it. I understand that there are problems with my appearance, and it's ok. Plus maybe I can get it fixed one day, who knows. Life isn't fair AT ALL. Some people are born lucky and are constantly happy and in bliss-and they didn't do anything to deserve, it's just how they see. You too will feel a lot better if you just accept things how they are, your looks, and stop making excuses, and coming to Reddit with the sob story. If you want you can look into plastic surgery.

I'll probably get about 30 downvotes and some offhand remarks about my mental state, but maybe this will help you, hopefully.