Thank you for the kind words. That's really what I've been trying to do. But there is only so much time I have physically in the same area as her, as this university is far from home and I need to pay rent, and the course is ending in three months. I thought asking her out would give that opportunity and kick things off, but I just keep hitting more hurdles with her, and I feel if I ask again it would just piss her off and make things awkward.
The issue is that I care about her so deeply I've started doing selfless things for her. I walked 2 miles to her house just to give her a cookie because she was sad on a specific day. It's gotten to the point where I see that she is happy and fine without me, so I feel maybe I would just be a bother to her.
I feel like someone with a hole in his chest, and she fits right in, but there's no hole in hers. I don't know if she needs me but I need her, that's the most painful part.