Yeah, depression sucks. Though I was always nice, and kind, and had empathy, I have learned that depression is more serious than I ever could have imagined. Part of it drives me to get good grades though, I mean even part time, full time, I always felt like I was going to fail the exam, even after taking it I would feel like "oh man, maybe I got a C" and then end up with an A. My therapist said its actually because of my parents that I am this way, and that unfortunately I am going to have to try and "re-grow up" with positive influences or something.....except I'm 27 and I'm not really sure how that would work.

Honestly I wish I could be happy with my accomplishments, but thank you for the run through of a possible interview. All the interviews I had in the past, even when I was going through my second surgery and was still in school full time, it was with a company human resource rep and a drilling engineer, and they were like, hmmm you interned for two summers, what happened last summer, and I explained. I was a little thrown because GPA, 2 internships at that point, but I think I probably just seemed very risky to them. I wish that some program existed in which they look at all the courses you have taken, and said okay 130 credits, 30 with 300-400 level, this should be a "General Engineering Degree" or some sort of accreditation certificate for like an associates. But I do know 4/5 of a degree is not a degree, and it is tough seeing people who cheated and partied, and w/e, have one. Though they are not doing shit with it. But I always wanted plaque. Interviewing, internships, working, always a little bit of gitters before hand, but I worked my whole life, but getting that degree, oh man. I would throw a very big party and invite anyone and everyone. I know that sounds ridiculous, because its "just the beginning", but when something was so close to being obtained, and then the rug is taken out from you, it makes it seem worth it that much more.