I'm sorry to hear you've had horrible experiences. I, too, have had awful experiences with women from the time I was a child. I truthfully can't think of any women in my life at the moment that I trust fully and respect. Even I, myself, have been guilty of being mean and manipulative. With that said, I don't believe that my experiences speak for an entire gender that encompasses something like 50% of the world. It's easy to let a negative bias taint our opinion of a generalised group.

You also don't have to look very hard to find brilliant women in pretty much any professional area, especially STEM. I think it's important to realise that young women are often discouraged from fields that are typically male-typed, such as programming, at an early age. Since we're playing with anecdotal experience, I was told in elementary school that I wasn't good at math. I never applied myself to it after that. In high school, I was pressured to drop physics because I "just didn't have the mind for it". I'm now midway through two different BS engineering degrees and have already taken classes required for my future MS in Nuclear Engineering. It's very unfair to assume that women, because of their gender, just don't try. A lot of us, like me, get our nerd starts late, and instead of broadcasting our inexperience we sometimes feel like we have to "prove" we belong or face ridicule. It happens. I have a mental envelope full of excuses for when I fuck up on CSGO - because when I fuck up, it's not because I fucked up, it's because all women are bad at video games. How fair is that?

I know this is all probably stuff you've heard before, and coming from a woman you will probably just cast it aside anyway. But know that the reason you hate women is because you're looking through bias-tinted glasses, not because you're seeing the truth.