Hey friend... so like... i hear you on so many levels. 31, finally finishing degree due to depression and anxiety, made some bad calls, single, resisted meds forever... I see you. So I am going to tell you what I tell me.
Life: You are totally normal for feeling all of this. Even without illness more people then not are stressing about their lives, feeling unsatisfied, worrying about their future and their relationships. Its part of the human conditiin that this feeling comes and goes. Its normal. Its what keeps us striving for better. So... dont beat yourself up for not reaching some arbitrary milestone in your head and make things worse. Who knows what the future will hold for you or other people. You may end up further along than other people by the end. You are doing just fine. You are where you need to be.
Love: Of course someone will love you for you. People have loved you in the past, and they love you now, and they will love you in the future. You are lovable. No one is perfect, so dont strive for perfection. Just try to be the best you that you can be.
Medication: right now you are living life on hardmode. Without meds, you might struggle with basic survival, and thats honorable and fine. But with meds, you will survive much easier, and can start practicing style and excellence. Instead of fight or flight, you will start thinking build and grow. Up to you, but you only get one chance at life, and you dont get extra points for making it more difficult for yourself.
But mostly... I just want you to know that I have been there. And it is hard. But you got this. Have a good goal in mind for where you want to go, one foot in front of the other, and eventually you will look up and be happy with where you have ended up.