You know how people tend to dream about a future where that they have it all figured out? Where you can do anything you want and you have all sorts of patience to stick with things and be successful in ways that are difficult for you to do at present?

Thats what happens. You realize that every problem you've ever had is because you were coming at life from a sense of lack. I had that sort of experience that Tolle talks about. It only lasted for about 3 days, for some reason. And you know what? Those where the most productive 3 days of my entire life.

I looked around my house, which is chronically trashed because I am lazy, and I realized that it isnt hard to have discipline when you already have your basic goodness. If you already have everything you need, there is nothing that pulls you away from being disciplined. The reason you don't have discipline in the first place was because you were craving something else than what you are now.

When I experienced it, it wasnt as if I just melted into the now and disappeared into bliss. The biggest thing that I was excited about was how much better my career path was going to be now that I already had my basic happiness. When you already have and already are everything you need, there isnt anxiety, and there isnt any feelings of unworthiness.

During the first day of the experience, I was driving, and I saw a cute looking girl walking on the sidewalk. Then I burst out laughing. How much easier it will be to get a girl now that I lack nothing! What a cool guy it makes someone when they are already content with themselves! But then I wont end up in a bad relationship like I have been in the past, because I don't NEED anything! Beautiful! When they have basic happiness, a person can still do all the awesome things in life. And he most likely will do a lot of those things. But he doesn't need to. And thats the best part! Its as if you already had all that stuff. Then when you go to actually do it, you can actually enjoy it, because you are happy and not lacking.

And then the experience ended, and my anxiety and addiction came back. But I had seen something key. My basic goodness is always there. But for some reason, I keep getting the idea that I am lacking. And when I am lacking, I am anxious, and I am addicted to anything that makes me feel good for a little while. Even in my pursuits, I pursue them as "someone who lacks". And that will never ever lead to happiness. True happiness is within and nowhere else.