Reading this kinda makes me realise my own shortcomings a little more. I was fortunate enough to meet someone who I’m mad about and she helped me realise that I have many of my own issues that need to be addressed. With her support, I’ve been trying a lot to be a better person and be someone that I, and she, can be proud of.

I have moments where old attitudes and insecurities creep up and those moments become bigger than I’d like them to. I word them strongly, the fallout is bigger and I find that hard to deal with too.

I think a lot of my insecurity now comes from making all these big changes to my life (personality traits as well as career and location, etc - the latter ones not due to my relationship) but I think I need that affirmation sometimes. To be told I’m doing well or that it’s not all for nothing. I’ve felt I need someone to tell me I’m doing the right thing cause life is scary and I don’t want to mess things up. I’m an emotional being too and things just boil over. I just want ti be a good person and I question a lot whether or not I am.

Maybe it’s time I stopped seeking validation from others and found my own independence.